Ok, here we go again. Today's the last day of the cleanse. I woke up way before the alarm today, which I seem to do most days now. I don't feel like a totally different person, but the cleanse has helped me break my soda addiction, and get up earlier in the mornings.
Today is the day when I'm supposed to start adding veggie protein. I've been adding it since Monday, so that's nothing new, but I'll celebrate by eating a nice bowl of Total and soy milk with my croissants.
In about an hour, I have to leave to get a bike at spinning, so I don't repeat last week's fiasco, where all the bikes are taken and I can't work out. Tomorrow's my weigh-in day, so I need this workout, especially since I haven't run all week.
I start running again tomorrow. Two miles! Wooooooooo. Then on Wednesday, it's three, and Friday, it's four. My calves are currently on fire, thanks to my overzealous Powerflex instructor from yesterday. So today's spinning and tomorrow's running should be interesting.
Yesterday, I got myself a new pair of running shoes, as a gift to myself for finishing the Nike+ walk to run program. Now, as you can see, I'm starting the Nike+ 5K training program - beginner level. At its peak, I have to run 7 miles straight. That doesn't sound like a beginner level to me! But I'll worry about that when I come to it. I never thought I could run 30 minutes, either, and I did that.
I'm not as excited about the cleanse being over tomorrow as I was during liquid week. However, for making it through (sorta!), as I promised myself, tomorrow I get to pig out on whatever I want. Sky's the limit. I'm sort of excited about the girl scout cookies that my coworker has been holding for me, but that's about it. Looking at my list now, nothing is jumping out to me, as it did before, like ooh! gotta have it! Maybe it's because I've been cheating here and there all week. Maybe that's what the cleanse is supposed to do. I think it's probably more of the latter.
Anyway, tomorrow after my weigh-in, I plan to get a donut and some hash browns for breakfast, maybe some spaghetti for lunch, and who knows about dinner? I'll play it by ear. For all I know, I'll be eating tangerines and bananas lol.
Tune in tomorrow to see how much weight I lost in total on the cleanse, and my overall assessment of it. (PS I hopped on and off the scale today, and it was in the neighborhood of 189. Hopefully today's calorie deficit will help tomorrow.)
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Twisted Statistics
Right now, I'm eating tomato soup. I'd forgotten exactly how much I hated soup, especially the kind with reduced salt. Yech! The honey wheat English muffin is making it tolerable, but other than that, EWWWWWWWWW!!!! I'm also having some cranberry juice.
Had I finished all of my soup, this breakfast would have been around 800 calories, which is way more than half I'm supposed to eat in one day. However, I'm planning to take in 2400 calories, which is more than double my limit. It may seem strange, since I'm trying to lose weight, but there's a method to my madness.
Yesterday, I swore to stick to 1148 calories, and burn even more than that. *buzzer* That's TOTALLY wrong, unless I plan to eat like a bird every day of my life, and workout for three hours 7 days a week. That's not realistic!
Here's what I think I figured out. I'm soooooo not a medical doctor, so don't take my word as gospel. Let's say a person (me!) has an estimated resting metabolic rate (RMR) of 1548 calories per day (find out yours by clicking here). That means you burn this amount of calories by just being alive. It doesn't factor in how much you burn at the gym. It's a formula based on your height, weight, age, and gender. So, hypothetically, if I were to lay in bed all day watching TV, I could eat approximately 1548 calories and stay around 185 pounds.
On top of that, to my understanding, a person may burn X amount of calories by being moderately active. I may walk around at work, or do laundry, or wash my car. All of those things also burn calories. So that X amount is added to my 1548. For example, if I clean my house for half an hour, I may burn 90 calories (according to #Lose It). So, if today I just clean my house and then go lay down and watch TV, I can eat 1638 calories and stay around 185 pounds.
Now, let's say that on my lazy Saturday, I also want to go for a 30-minute run (Y). If I run at my normal pace, I'll burn 313 calories. So, now after running, cleaning my house, and watching TV for the rest of the day, I can eat 1951 calories, and still stay around 185 pounds.
This seems easy enough, but another factor comes into play: metabolism. Everybody's metabolism is different, which is why RMR is only estimated. It's determined by a number of factors, a big one of which is genetics. Another factor that may or may not be related to genetics is thyroid function. People with hypothyroidism (your thyroid works slowly) may put on weight easily, and find it difficult to lose. The inverse is hyperthyroidism (your thyroid works rapidly), which does the opposite, but can lead to its own health effects. There are several other medical conditions which can have an effect on metabolism.
It's possible to speed up your own metabolism. From what I heard, you can do this in several ways without medication. I've heard doctors say that you can eat several small meals a day. I've also heard it's good to take vitamins, especially B12 and kelp. Again, I'm no medical doctor...I'm just sharing what I've heard.
On the flip side, I'm finding that it's possible to slow down your metabolism. Remember when I got off the liquid part of the diet and I started eating salads? I gained 3 pounds in two days. That's because when I was drinking juice and water, I was nowhere near my 1548 RMR. So my metabolism reset itself. That's a survival mechanism. My RMR was so much lower when I got off the cleanse, that anything I consumed past RMR + X + Y would be viewed by my body as excess calories and could lead to weight gain. It would take time for my RMR to approach 1548 again, and the only way to do that was to EAT!
This is what led to my derailment on Thursday. I didn't factor this stuff in, and I got frustrated that I was gaining weight so quickly. In the back of my mind, I knew very well that I could eat maybe 800 or 900 calories a day and maintain my 185, but, like I said before, WHO WANTS TO EAT LIKE A BIRD FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIFE?
I guess the pigging out helped in a way. I think it was probably a natural reaction, and since I only did it one day, it probably helped me bring up my RMR. If I were to do it every day, I'd be back at 224 before I knew it! Lol. But one day every blue moon won't hurt.
Anyway, let's bring it back to the present. My iPhone app, Lose It, calculates RMR and counts calories for me. It also calculates how many calories I need to net per day to lose however many pounds per week. I have it set to help me lose 2 pounds per week. A pound is 3500 calories, so I have to net 7000 per week less than I would to maintain my weight. That averages out to 1000 calories per day.
I'm trying to get into the psychology of the app, but from what I figured so far, it takes my 1548 RMR and adds the average X calories that most people expend, then subtracts 1000. Which leads it to 1148. So, netting 1148 calories per day should help me lose two pounds per week, if my metabolism is working right.
Yesterday, I planned to only eat 1148 calories, and burn a ridiculous amount, leading me to net a negative amount of calories. *buzzer* That was WRONG. If I did that regularly, my metabolism would reset itself to expect me to net negative calories a day, which is BAD. At that pace, to lose any weight, I'd have to eat less and less, and workout more and more, as my weight decreased. This would be setting myself up to fail because (1) I don't have an infinite amount of time, and (2) eventually the number of calories taken in would hit 0, and of course if you don't eat for a long time, you'll die. This is not a good idea.
So, today I plan to go to Powerflex and two Zumba sessions. This will burn 1164 calories, give or take. When I add this to my calorie allowance, this gives me 2000-something...I'm tired of doing math. It was almost 2400. When I divide that by three meals, then it's 700-something. To make a long story short (too late!), this is why I can enjoy my 800 calorie breakfast without freaking out. Whew! (As you can see, I love analysis...a typical Virgo trait!)
The best thing I'm learning through this journey is everything in moderation...and I don't just mean food! I'm very often an all-or-nothing kind of person. I overdo it in the gym, I overdo it on diets, I overdo it when pigging out, etc. But it pays to keep a cool head and think things through.
AND WE SHOULDN'T BEAT OURSELVES UP WHEN WE MESS UP ONCE IN A WHILE! As I found, pigging out on Thursday may have helped me stabilize my RMR faster...but like I said, it wouldn't have been good, had I done it Friday, too (like I was tempted to lol). I have to remember, if we eat more than our metabolism can handle at any given time, we will gain weight!
Tomorrow, I DO plan to shock my system, as I described yesterday, but only for one day. I will take in exactly 1148, and burn about 800 over my RMR+X, to net about 348, because I'm weighing in the next day. I think if I do this once or so a week, it won't hurt my metabolism much, and it should be an easy recovery. This is all experimental. We'll see if it pays off Monday morning, for my weigh-in.
(PS, I hopped on the scale this morning out of curiosity...I literally hopped on and hopped off lol! I didn't want to know the exact number, but a ballpark figure. I saw it was around 189ish...this is much better than yesterday's 193ish. Lol.)
Disclaimer: Tales of a Big Girl represents my thoughts and opinions, and those of others. I am not a doctor. Please consult a physician before undertaking a diet or exercise routine.
Had I finished all of my soup, this breakfast would have been around 800 calories, which is way more than half I'm supposed to eat in one day. However, I'm planning to take in 2400 calories, which is more than double my limit. It may seem strange, since I'm trying to lose weight, but there's a method to my madness.
Yesterday, I swore to stick to 1148 calories, and burn even more than that. *buzzer* That's TOTALLY wrong, unless I plan to eat like a bird every day of my life, and workout for three hours 7 days a week. That's not realistic!
Here's what I think I figured out. I'm soooooo not a medical doctor, so don't take my word as gospel. Let's say a person (me!) has an estimated resting metabolic rate (RMR) of 1548 calories per day (find out yours by clicking here). That means you burn this amount of calories by just being alive. It doesn't factor in how much you burn at the gym. It's a formula based on your height, weight, age, and gender. So, hypothetically, if I were to lay in bed all day watching TV, I could eat approximately 1548 calories and stay around 185 pounds.
On top of that, to my understanding, a person may burn X amount of calories by being moderately active. I may walk around at work, or do laundry, or wash my car. All of those things also burn calories. So that X amount is added to my 1548. For example, if I clean my house for half an hour, I may burn 90 calories (according to #Lose It). So, if today I just clean my house and then go lay down and watch TV, I can eat 1638 calories and stay around 185 pounds.
Now, let's say that on my lazy Saturday, I also want to go for a 30-minute run (Y). If I run at my normal pace, I'll burn 313 calories. So, now after running, cleaning my house, and watching TV for the rest of the day, I can eat 1951 calories, and still stay around 185 pounds.
This seems easy enough, but another factor comes into play: metabolism. Everybody's metabolism is different, which is why RMR is only estimated. It's determined by a number of factors, a big one of which is genetics. Another factor that may or may not be related to genetics is thyroid function. People with hypothyroidism (your thyroid works slowly) may put on weight easily, and find it difficult to lose. The inverse is hyperthyroidism (your thyroid works rapidly), which does the opposite, but can lead to its own health effects. There are several other medical conditions which can have an effect on metabolism.
It's possible to speed up your own metabolism. From what I heard, you can do this in several ways without medication. I've heard doctors say that you can eat several small meals a day. I've also heard it's good to take vitamins, especially B12 and kelp. Again, I'm no medical doctor...I'm just sharing what I've heard.
On the flip side, I'm finding that it's possible to slow down your metabolism. Remember when I got off the liquid part of the diet and I started eating salads? I gained 3 pounds in two days. That's because when I was drinking juice and water, I was nowhere near my 1548 RMR. So my metabolism reset itself. That's a survival mechanism. My RMR was so much lower when I got off the cleanse, that anything I consumed past RMR + X + Y would be viewed by my body as excess calories and could lead to weight gain. It would take time for my RMR to approach 1548 again, and the only way to do that was to EAT!
This is what led to my derailment on Thursday. I didn't factor this stuff in, and I got frustrated that I was gaining weight so quickly. In the back of my mind, I knew very well that I could eat maybe 800 or 900 calories a day and maintain my 185, but, like I said before, WHO WANTS TO EAT LIKE A BIRD FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIFE?
I guess the pigging out helped in a way. I think it was probably a natural reaction, and since I only did it one day, it probably helped me bring up my RMR. If I were to do it every day, I'd be back at 224 before I knew it! Lol. But one day every blue moon won't hurt.
Anyway, let's bring it back to the present. My iPhone app, Lose It, calculates RMR and counts calories for me. It also calculates how many calories I need to net per day to lose however many pounds per week. I have it set to help me lose 2 pounds per week. A pound is 3500 calories, so I have to net 7000 per week less than I would to maintain my weight. That averages out to 1000 calories per day.
I'm trying to get into the psychology of the app, but from what I figured so far, it takes my 1548 RMR and adds the average X calories that most people expend, then subtracts 1000. Which leads it to 1148. So, netting 1148 calories per day should help me lose two pounds per week, if my metabolism is working right.
Yesterday, I planned to only eat 1148 calories, and burn a ridiculous amount, leading me to net a negative amount of calories. *buzzer* That was WRONG. If I did that regularly, my metabolism would reset itself to expect me to net negative calories a day, which is BAD. At that pace, to lose any weight, I'd have to eat less and less, and workout more and more, as my weight decreased. This would be setting myself up to fail because (1) I don't have an infinite amount of time, and (2) eventually the number of calories taken in would hit 0, and of course if you don't eat for a long time, you'll die. This is not a good idea.
So, today I plan to go to Powerflex and two Zumba sessions. This will burn 1164 calories, give or take. When I add this to my calorie allowance, this gives me 2000-something...I'm tired of doing math. It was almost 2400. When I divide that by three meals, then it's 700-something. To make a long story short (too late!), this is why I can enjoy my 800 calorie breakfast without freaking out. Whew! (As you can see, I love analysis...a typical Virgo trait!)
The best thing I'm learning through this journey is everything in moderation...and I don't just mean food! I'm very often an all-or-nothing kind of person. I overdo it in the gym, I overdo it on diets, I overdo it when pigging out, etc. But it pays to keep a cool head and think things through.
AND WE SHOULDN'T BEAT OURSELVES UP WHEN WE MESS UP ONCE IN A WHILE! As I found, pigging out on Thursday may have helped me stabilize my RMR faster...but like I said, it wouldn't have been good, had I done it Friday, too (like I was tempted to lol). I have to remember, if we eat more than our metabolism can handle at any given time, we will gain weight!
Tomorrow, I DO plan to shock my system, as I described yesterday, but only for one day. I will take in exactly 1148, and burn about 800 over my RMR+X, to net about 348, because I'm weighing in the next day. I think if I do this once or so a week, it won't hurt my metabolism much, and it should be an easy recovery. This is all experimental. We'll see if it pays off Monday morning, for my weigh-in.
(PS, I hopped on the scale this morning out of curiosity...I literally hopped on and hopped off lol! I didn't want to know the exact number, but a ballpark figure. I saw it was around 189ish...this is much better than yesterday's 193ish. Lol.)
Disclaimer: Tales of a Big Girl represents my thoughts and opinions, and those of others. I am not a doctor. Please consult a physician before undertaking a diet or exercise routine.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Derailed
I'm sure you guys all saw me freaking out yesterday because I messed up a little. Messing up a little, turned into messing up BIG-TIME!!! I didn't stick to the cleanse. I was eating pretty much whatever was in my fridge, that I'd been depriving myself of for the past three weeks.
By the time I was supposed to go to the gym, which I would have regularly done, I was so disappointed in myself that I wrote the whole day off and vowed to get back on track in the morning. This was the first time I haven't worked out in 16 days, straight, so this wasn't so bad. But the eating killed me.
I was originally supposed to get on the scale tomorrow, but now I have no doubt that I'm over 190. I stopped counting calories around 2 pm, but at last count, I was 800 above my daily limit. I'm sure by the time I finished, I had eaten around/over 3000 calories for the day. Since I didn't work out, and my body is so weird, I'm sure I probably went from 187.5 to around 191-ish.
I sorta have a phobia of going over 189. Once I lose weight, it kills me when I go up into the next 10. For example, when I got to 199.5, I was crushed the next day when I gained half a pound and I was back to 200. Now that morale is low, if I find out that I'm back into the 190s, I could quit altogether. So, no weighing in tomorrow.
Instead, I need to bust my hump over the next three days to get well under 190. That means instead of eating the calories that I plan to burn, I will eat exactly the limit. For example, Lose It says I can net 1148 calories a day (my body burns 1148 naturally, without exercise). Most other days, I'd factor in my exercise and eat maybe 1500 or so. But for the next three days, I'm sticking to the 1148. I hope that doesn't slow my metabolism even more. There's only one way to find out.
I also plan to burn super-calories today and tomorrow. On the workout agenda today is the Friday school workout club, which should burn about 133. Then it's 2 hours of Zumba at their monthly fundraiser, which should burn 985. So for the day, I'll burn 1118. Subtract that from my 1148, and I should net 30 calories today.
Tomorrow, it will be more of the same. Powerflex should burn 179, and two hours of Zumba should burn 985. These are all conservative estimates by the way. Tomorrow, I should net -16 calories.
Sunday, all I have on the agenda is spinning. That will burn 875 calories, leading me to net 273.
If I estimate I'm around 191 now, I'd take a shot in the dark and say I should be 186-ish by Monday morning. This isn't scientific, just based off personal experience. We'll find out how close I am to being right. Hopefully I'm wrong, and I'll be under 185, so I can take more pictures! Let's find out together lol.
By the time I was supposed to go to the gym, which I would have regularly done, I was so disappointed in myself that I wrote the whole day off and vowed to get back on track in the morning. This was the first time I haven't worked out in 16 days, straight, so this wasn't so bad. But the eating killed me.
I was originally supposed to get on the scale tomorrow, but now I have no doubt that I'm over 190. I stopped counting calories around 2 pm, but at last count, I was 800 above my daily limit. I'm sure by the time I finished, I had eaten around/over 3000 calories for the day. Since I didn't work out, and my body is so weird, I'm sure I probably went from 187.5 to around 191-ish.
I sorta have a phobia of going over 189. Once I lose weight, it kills me when I go up into the next 10. For example, when I got to 199.5, I was crushed the next day when I gained half a pound and I was back to 200. Now that morale is low, if I find out that I'm back into the 190s, I could quit altogether. So, no weighing in tomorrow.
Instead, I need to bust my hump over the next three days to get well under 190. That means instead of eating the calories that I plan to burn, I will eat exactly the limit. For example, Lose It says I can net 1148 calories a day (my body burns 1148 naturally, without exercise). Most other days, I'd factor in my exercise and eat maybe 1500 or so. But for the next three days, I'm sticking to the 1148. I hope that doesn't slow my metabolism even more. There's only one way to find out.
I also plan to burn super-calories today and tomorrow. On the workout agenda today is the Friday school workout club, which should burn about 133. Then it's 2 hours of Zumba at their monthly fundraiser, which should burn 985. So for the day, I'll burn 1118. Subtract that from my 1148, and I should net 30 calories today.
Tomorrow, it will be more of the same. Powerflex should burn 179, and two hours of Zumba should burn 985. These are all conservative estimates by the way. Tomorrow, I should net -16 calories.
Sunday, all I have on the agenda is spinning. That will burn 875 calories, leading me to net 273.
If I estimate I'm around 191 now, I'd take a shot in the dark and say I should be 186-ish by Monday morning. This isn't scientific, just based off personal experience. We'll find out how close I am to being right. Hopefully I'm wrong, and I'll be under 185, so I can take more pictures! Let's find out together lol.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
I Think I Can
Just had a much-needed talk with my mom. TOMORROW I'M GETTING BACK ON TRACK. New blog post will be up by 7 am about my plans to finish strong on the cleanse. That includes no Saturday weigh in lol.
Low Point
I'm so bad. I cheated, and not in a small way. Hot pockets, toaster strudel, pudding...this was baaaaad. I just got tired of busting my rear end and not getting results anymore. I sorta wish I never did the liquid only week of the cleanse, or whatever I did wrong to make my metabolism slow down so much. I'm disappointed in myself, and I need to resist the temptation to blow off my workouts for today, because I probably won't recover as quickly from slacking if I get into a pattern.
In terms of my eating, I'm getting right back on the cleanse, at the latest, by tomorrow morning. This should be a speed bump, not a stop sign. I've gotta make it work.
In terms of my eating, I'm getting right back on the cleanse, at the latest, by tomorrow morning. This should be a speed bump, not a stop sign. I've gotta make it work.
Cheater, Cheater, Tofu Eater!
Today when I got on the scale, it couldn't decide if I was 187.5 or 188. I'm happy that it finally landed on 187.5. While I'm not losing weight as fast as I was before the cleanse, I'm happy that I'm starting to actually lose weight again, instead of gaining it. I'm sure that as the days go by, my metabolism will pick back up. Before I know it, I should be under 185, where I was on Monday.
Day 18 of the cleanse is the one where you're supposed to add potatoes back into the mix. Since I'm a starch-etarian, I figured that I'd be super-excited about it. I was last night, but the truth is, I'm just happy to be able to eat after the hell I put my body through last week. I'm actually kind of mad that the potatoes are taking up so many calories today.
I've stuck to the cleanse for the most part so far, but I haven't been 100% dedicated, especially when food was reintroduced. Like I said before, I added veggie protein into my food six days early. There was probably no practical need to do so. I just hate salads, and convinced myself that I needed the tofu and veggie burgers because I was working out.
Yesterday, I was starving after eating only watermelon and a tangerine for lunch, so I looked on my work's website, and saw that they were having my favorite! Stuffed shells and garlic bread. While I was able to resist the temptation of the cheese-stuffed shells (which I'm not supposed to have at all on the cleanse), I did cheat and have 3 pieces of garlic bread.
I'm not supposed to have bread until tomorrow, but I told myself that if the meat-eaters can eat garlic bread on their cleanse, it wouldn't be too bad if I ate it too. Plus, each piece was only 58 calories, so how bad could it be?
I soon found out there's a reason why I was supposed to wait for the bread. About five seconds after I ate the first piece of bread, I was in pain. But it didn't matter! The bread was so yummy, I ate all three pieces. Muhahaha. I didn't have to run to the bathroom or anything like I did the first day I ate solid food, but the next hour was very uncomfortable.
Today, I'm doing the potato thing, the juice thing, and the apples thing. I'm gonna try and burn off all the starches later with Zumba, and maybe Powerflex if I can find a class that fits in my schedule. Yesterday, I touched my side and I felt oblique muscles for the first time ever. So, I'm encouraged.
Since I now know that I'm slowly starting to lose weight instead of gain it, I can put off my weigh-in until Saturday morning. Hopefully I'll be under 185 so I can take a picture :-D
Weight: 187.5(ish)
Total weight lost: 36.5
To 165: 22.5
To 139: 48.5
Days left on cleanse: 3
Next scheduled weigh-in: Saturday
Day 18 of the cleanse is the one where you're supposed to add potatoes back into the mix. Since I'm a starch-etarian, I figured that I'd be super-excited about it. I was last night, but the truth is, I'm just happy to be able to eat after the hell I put my body through last week. I'm actually kind of mad that the potatoes are taking up so many calories today.
I've stuck to the cleanse for the most part so far, but I haven't been 100% dedicated, especially when food was reintroduced. Like I said before, I added veggie protein into my food six days early. There was probably no practical need to do so. I just hate salads, and convinced myself that I needed the tofu and veggie burgers because I was working out.
Yesterday, I was starving after eating only watermelon and a tangerine for lunch, so I looked on my work's website, and saw that they were having my favorite! Stuffed shells and garlic bread. While I was able to resist the temptation of the cheese-stuffed shells (which I'm not supposed to have at all on the cleanse), I did cheat and have 3 pieces of garlic bread.
I'm not supposed to have bread until tomorrow, but I told myself that if the meat-eaters can eat garlic bread on their cleanse, it wouldn't be too bad if I ate it too. Plus, each piece was only 58 calories, so how bad could it be?
I soon found out there's a reason why I was supposed to wait for the bread. About five seconds after I ate the first piece of bread, I was in pain. But it didn't matter! The bread was so yummy, I ate all three pieces. Muhahaha. I didn't have to run to the bathroom or anything like I did the first day I ate solid food, but the next hour was very uncomfortable.
Today, I'm doing the potato thing, the juice thing, and the apples thing. I'm gonna try and burn off all the starches later with Zumba, and maybe Powerflex if I can find a class that fits in my schedule. Yesterday, I touched my side and I felt oblique muscles for the first time ever. So, I'm encouraged.
Since I now know that I'm slowly starting to lose weight instead of gain it, I can put off my weigh-in until Saturday morning. Hopefully I'll be under 185 so I can take a picture :-D
Weight: 187.5(ish)
Total weight lost: 36.5
To 165: 22.5
To 139: 48.5
Days left on cleanse: 3
Next scheduled weigh-in: Saturday
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Run, Forrest, Run!!!
I gained three pounds in two days, but I'm not surprised and I'm not mad. This was actually pretty inevitable, once I switched back to solid food. It's all scientific, really.
Typically, when our bodies are deprived of calories, they get used to performing at that level. Last week when I was on the liquid phase of the cleanse, I was taking in under 1000 calories a day, and was burning more than that, through exercise and running. So, I was netting probably in the negative, daily. According to Lose It, the app on the iPhone that I use to count calories, based on my weight, I should net about 1100 calories daily. So, my metabolism slowed down.
In addition, this week I'm giving my joints a rest and not running. It's sort of a treat to myself for finishing the Nike+ walk to run program. I think I need the time off because (a) I'm super-busy this week, and (b) the 5K training program is hard! Next week, I'll be running up to 4 miles a day. So, I need to mentally prepare for that.
I should probably sign up to do a race to see how far I've come, but I'm still pretty disenchanted with racing. Last time I ran a race was in October. It was my second 5K. The first one was in August, and I had gotten a sucky time of 53 minutes and some change. I had barely come in before two blue-haired old ladies, who were walking.
Anyway, in the October race, I wanted to beat my time, and not come in last. I knew that I was supposed to just be focusing on getting a better time, but my entire life, I'd been coming in last, and I was always ashamed when I did. I was tired of being ashamed. I was not going to come in last.
When the race started, I tried to maintain my pace, but it was pretty hard with everybody passing me. I wanted to run faster, too, because I hate when people pass me. But when I did, I got tired. Soon I was walking. Slllloooooowwwwwwllllyyyy. Now EVERYBODY was passing me, even the walkers. However, when I looked back around the halfway mark, there was still one person right behind me.
She happened to be this girl in my running club. During our practice runs, the coach had made us partner up, because we were the slowest. The girl was better at running than me, but for some reason, she was walking a lot more than I was. I should have run with her, but my immaturity as a runner kicked in. Nope, can't be last. Gotta stay in front of her.
When I came down the last stretch, I started running at full speed. Since I was waaaay behind most of the crowd, I got so many cheers, and I even had a crowd member start running along side of me in the grass. This embarrassed me to no end.
Once again, I felt like same slow, chubby kid in middle school gym class. I felt like the crowd was cheering out of pity. Looking back, I'm sure that's not the case, but at the time, I wanted them to ignore me like they did to everyone else who didn't come in first.
I crossed the finish line, just under 48 minutes. Another sucky time, but at least it was 5 minutes better than the first one. I was slightly encouraged. And I hadn't come in last!
...That is, until the official times came out. My name was dead last paper, immortalized for the world to see. I was furious, especially since I saw two more women finishing the race after my club partner. It wasn't fair. I had come in fourth-to-last, not dead last! I was so embarrassed. I never ran with the running club again.
Eventually, I figured out that the race had a time limit, and I was the last person to make it before the cut-off. Looking back, my reaction was blown way out of proportion, but I'm actually glad I did quit the running club.
For the most part, the running club served to frustrate me. I wasn't ready. Honestly, I needed to come as far as I have on my own, before I could run with a group. I'm glad I had the experiences with them, to give me something to shoot for. Maybe I'll try it again someday, but definitely not soon.
The individualized Nike+ program has taken me from running one minute at a time to running for 30 minutes at a time. By next Friday, I'll probably double that.
It may be time for me to run a race, but I don't know if I'm mentally ready yet. October was only four months away. Recently, when I went to a local middle school track to run, I got smoked by a power-walking blue-haired lady. She was on point.
The old me would have probably given up. But I swallowed my pride, stuck to my guns, and finished my workout. I think I need to get to the point where I don't even pay attention, and just focus on myself. I'm sure that will come in time.
I'm weighing in again tomorrow. I need to make sure I start losing weight soon. Last thing I wanna do is look down at the scale and be over 190 again. Pictures will come when I'm under 185.
Total weight lost: 36
To 165: 23
To 139: 49
Days left on cleanse: 4
Next scheduled weigh-in: TOMORROW
Typically, when our bodies are deprived of calories, they get used to performing at that level. Last week when I was on the liquid phase of the cleanse, I was taking in under 1000 calories a day, and was burning more than that, through exercise and running. So, I was netting probably in the negative, daily. According to Lose It, the app on the iPhone that I use to count calories, based on my weight, I should net about 1100 calories daily. So, my metabolism slowed down.
In addition, this week I'm giving my joints a rest and not running. It's sort of a treat to myself for finishing the Nike+ walk to run program. I think I need the time off because (a) I'm super-busy this week, and (b) the 5K training program is hard! Next week, I'll be running up to 4 miles a day. So, I need to mentally prepare for that.
I should probably sign up to do a race to see how far I've come, but I'm still pretty disenchanted with racing. Last time I ran a race was in October. It was my second 5K. The first one was in August, and I had gotten a sucky time of 53 minutes and some change. I had barely come in before two blue-haired old ladies, who were walking.
Anyway, in the October race, I wanted to beat my time, and not come in last. I knew that I was supposed to just be focusing on getting a better time, but my entire life, I'd been coming in last, and I was always ashamed when I did. I was tired of being ashamed. I was not going to come in last.
When the race started, I tried to maintain my pace, but it was pretty hard with everybody passing me. I wanted to run faster, too, because I hate when people pass me. But when I did, I got tired. Soon I was walking. Slllloooooowwwwwwllllyyyy. Now EVERYBODY was passing me, even the walkers. However, when I looked back around the halfway mark, there was still one person right behind me.
She happened to be this girl in my running club. During our practice runs, the coach had made us partner up, because we were the slowest. The girl was better at running than me, but for some reason, she was walking a lot more than I was. I should have run with her, but my immaturity as a runner kicked in. Nope, can't be last. Gotta stay in front of her.
When I came down the last stretch, I started running at full speed. Since I was waaaay behind most of the crowd, I got so many cheers, and I even had a crowd member start running along side of me in the grass. This embarrassed me to no end.
Once again, I felt like same slow, chubby kid in middle school gym class. I felt like the crowd was cheering out of pity. Looking back, I'm sure that's not the case, but at the time, I wanted them to ignore me like they did to everyone else who didn't come in first.
I crossed the finish line, just under 48 minutes. Another sucky time, but at least it was 5 minutes better than the first one. I was slightly encouraged. And I hadn't come in last!
...That is, until the official times came out. My name was dead last paper, immortalized for the world to see. I was furious, especially since I saw two more women finishing the race after my club partner. It wasn't fair. I had come in fourth-to-last, not dead last! I was so embarrassed. I never ran with the running club again.
Eventually, I figured out that the race had a time limit, and I was the last person to make it before the cut-off. Looking back, my reaction was blown way out of proportion, but I'm actually glad I did quit the running club.
For the most part, the running club served to frustrate me. I wasn't ready. Honestly, I needed to come as far as I have on my own, before I could run with a group. I'm glad I had the experiences with them, to give me something to shoot for. Maybe I'll try it again someday, but definitely not soon.
The individualized Nike+ program has taken me from running one minute at a time to running for 30 minutes at a time. By next Friday, I'll probably double that.
It may be time for me to run a race, but I don't know if I'm mentally ready yet. October was only four months away. Recently, when I went to a local middle school track to run, I got smoked by a power-walking blue-haired lady. She was on point.
The old me would have probably given up. But I swallowed my pride, stuck to my guns, and finished my workout. I think I need to get to the point where I don't even pay attention, and just focus on myself. I'm sure that will come in time.
I'm weighing in again tomorrow. I need to make sure I start losing weight soon. Last thing I wanna do is look down at the scale and be over 190 again. Pictures will come when I'm under 185.
Total weight lost: 36
To 165: 23
To 139: 49
Days left on cleanse: 4
Next scheduled weigh-in: TOMORROW
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sleepy!!!
Today, I'm exhausted. Maybe it's because I'm so busy. Maybe it's because I went to sleep a little late. It's probably a combination of lots of things. I'm so sleepy though. I even gave myself an extra half hour to sleep today. Oh well. Whatever.
I feel like I went overboard yesterday with the food, but I always give myself one day a week to pig out without counting calories. For breakfast, I had about a half-pack of stir-fry, and a quarter pack of tofu. I finished the stir-fry for snack at work, then for lunch, I went to Subway and got a disgustingly-cold double veggie-patty salad. For dinner, I had another half pack of stir-fry and quarter pack of tofu. It may not sound like a lot, but it feels like a lot. I can feel that I've gained at least a pound.
This morning, I'm finishing up my stir-fry tofu. I'm gonna make myself a couple of salads for lunch and dinner. I'll throw in a crumbled veggie burger patty as toppings for each one (learned that trick from my work twin).
Last night, I went to a pump class at the same place where they have Zumba. Surprisingly, I'm not sore. But that's probably why I'm sleepy. Tonight, I'm going to Zumba with my parents, which will be great to burn off some extra calories before tomorrow's weigh-in. Like I said yesterday, I won't be surprised if I went up a little in numbers, because I just started eating again. But hopefully I'll come down really quickly.
The plan for today is to take in 1129 calories or less, and burn about 500 at Zumba. I may push the weigh-in to Thursday if I feel that I still haven't come down enough, because if I get on that scale and gain five pounds, that will be very discouraging. I'm not gonna jinx myself. Positive thoughts.
Ommmmmmm. Ommmmmmm.
I feel like I went overboard yesterday with the food, but I always give myself one day a week to pig out without counting calories. For breakfast, I had about a half-pack of stir-fry, and a quarter pack of tofu. I finished the stir-fry for snack at work, then for lunch, I went to Subway and got a disgustingly-cold double veggie-patty salad. For dinner, I had another half pack of stir-fry and quarter pack of tofu. It may not sound like a lot, but it feels like a lot. I can feel that I've gained at least a pound.
This morning, I'm finishing up my stir-fry tofu. I'm gonna make myself a couple of salads for lunch and dinner. I'll throw in a crumbled veggie burger patty as toppings for each one (learned that trick from my work twin).
Last night, I went to a pump class at the same place where they have Zumba. Surprisingly, I'm not sore. But that's probably why I'm sleepy. Tonight, I'm going to Zumba with my parents, which will be great to burn off some extra calories before tomorrow's weigh-in. Like I said yesterday, I won't be surprised if I went up a little in numbers, because I just started eating again. But hopefully I'll come down really quickly.
The plan for today is to take in 1129 calories or less, and burn about 500 at Zumba. I may push the weigh-in to Thursday if I feel that I still haven't come down enough, because if I get on that scale and gain five pounds, that will be very discouraging. I'm not gonna jinx myself. Positive thoughts.
Ommmmmmm. Ommmmmmm.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Unexpected Side Effect...
Hmmm. How can I put this delicately?
If I were to do the cleanse over, I'd schedule Day 15 on a weekend. I think I'm on Day 15. Well whatever today is belongs on a weekend.
I've learned that your body is very adaptable. It apparently got used to performing on liquids alone. When I introduced solids again for the first time, I guess it didn't know what do. This is very bad when you have a classroom full of kids.
Enough said.
If I were to do the cleanse over, I'd schedule Day 15 on a weekend. I think I'm on Day 15. Well whatever today is belongs on a weekend.
I've learned that your body is very adaptable. It apparently got used to performing on liquids alone. When I introduced solids again for the first time, I guess it didn't know what do. This is very bad when you have a classroom full of kids.
Enough said.
Yum!
As soon as I finish typing this sentence, I'm going downstairs and making myself some stir-fry vegetables and tofu.
Ok, I'm back. Question: What does food taste like after a week straight of not eating?
Answer: Deeeeee-lish!
Prior to the cleanse, this would not have been my breakfast of choice. But today, I'd have it no other way. Next time, I'll know to stir-fry the tofu a little more. Other than that, this is the bomb!
I did weigh in this morning. I was a little disappointed to see that I only lost a pound and a half over the entire weekend. To keep it real, I did cheat a little bit yesterday at my parent's house, with some 60-calorie hot chocolate. And I wasn't able to do spinning yesterday morning because all the bikes were taken by the time I was done with my run. But I still was, on average, more than 700 calories under my daily target.
However, I did lose eight pounds last week, tying my previous record. My metabolism may have slowed down towards the end, but it will pick back up this week as I re-approach my calorie limits. I expect to gain a little weight first, but lose it pretty quickly. For that reason, I probably shouldn't get on the scale for a while. I'll play it by ear. It definitely won't be tomorrow morning.
I'm surprisingly done eating now, leaving more than half my plate untouched. Since it is Monday, I'm going to Subway later for a double-veggie patty salad. For dinner, I'll probably eat the rest of the salad, and maybe the rest of the stir-fry.
Even though I'm not counting calories today, I expect to take in around 1000 and burn maybe 1500, through Zumba (1000) and after-work basketball practice (500). The last thing I want to do is shock my body and end up putting on 2 or 3 pounds in one day.
Total weight lost: 39
To 165: 20
To 139: 46
Days left on cleanse: 7
Next scheduled weigh-in: ??? (maybe Wednesday)
Ok, I'm back. Question: What does food taste like after a week straight of not eating?
Answer: Deeeeee-lish!
Prior to the cleanse, this would not have been my breakfast of choice. But today, I'd have it no other way. Next time, I'll know to stir-fry the tofu a little more. Other than that, this is the bomb!
I did weigh in this morning. I was a little disappointed to see that I only lost a pound and a half over the entire weekend. To keep it real, I did cheat a little bit yesterday at my parent's house, with some 60-calorie hot chocolate. And I wasn't able to do spinning yesterday morning because all the bikes were taken by the time I was done with my run. But I still was, on average, more than 700 calories under my daily target.
However, I did lose eight pounds last week, tying my previous record. My metabolism may have slowed down towards the end, but it will pick back up this week as I re-approach my calorie limits. I expect to gain a little weight first, but lose it pretty quickly. For that reason, I probably shouldn't get on the scale for a while. I'll play it by ear. It definitely won't be tomorrow morning.
I'm surprisingly done eating now, leaving more than half my plate untouched. Since it is Monday, I'm going to Subway later for a double-veggie patty salad. For dinner, I'll probably eat the rest of the salad, and maybe the rest of the stir-fry.
Even though I'm not counting calories today, I expect to take in around 1000 and burn maybe 1500, through Zumba (1000) and after-work basketball practice (500). The last thing I want to do is shock my body and end up putting on 2 or 3 pounds in one day.
Total weight lost: 39
To 165: 20
To 139: 46
Days left on cleanse: 7
Next scheduled weigh-in: ??? (maybe Wednesday)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Laziness
This morning when I woke up, I had a scary, familiar thought. I'm tired. Why not sleep in and skip the workouts?
Although it seems innocent enough, this is very dangerous to my momentum. Whenever I wake up with this in my head, it leads to a vicious cycle.
This is how it usually goes: I wake up, I curse myself out for not sticking to the plan, I tell myself that I'll start over in the morning, I pig out, and the next day, it happens all over again. So I'm sure you can realize how dangerous this would be when I'm on Day 14 of a 21 day cleanse. It would be stupid to mess up now, especially when I can legitimately eat solid food in less than 24 hours.
Today, I will be busier than a chicken with my head cut off. So many things to do...most of them involve exercise. This will be a tough day of working out, but I'm sure I can handle it. I'll quit anytime I'm not feeling up to it. It's my last-chance workout before my weigh-in tomorrow morning.
Running
First on the schedule is running. I'm sort of dreading it, but excited as well. Today's 40 minutes on the treadmill will mark the end of my Nike+ walk-to-run program. This is an example of something I've restarted numerous times; however, this is my first time completing the 12-week program.
It's sort of monumental, because when I began running in July, I couldn't run for even a minute straight. Now, I'm up to 30. It's still not easy for me, but it's an accomplishment.
After this, I'll be taking a week off to let my joints recover. Then, I'm gonna start up the Nike+ 5K training program, beginner level. I should probably sign up to do a race soon, to see what my new 5K time would be. After last race, though, I'm apprehensive. More about that later.
Spinning
Immediately after I step off the track, it's time to go upstairs for an hour of spinning. This will be a fun experiment. Last week when I did the inverse (spinning first, then running), my legs felt like jello, but I could make it. Let's see what happens today. I'm sure I can make it, since you take it at your own pace.
After spinning, I run some errands (i.e. hairdresser, groceries), for two hours until...
Zumba
Two, count 'em two hours of a special beginner's class. Yaaaaay!
This will mark the end of my workouts for today. I'm amazed I can do this all after a week on juice and water, but surprisingly, I have just as much energy as when I was eating my junk food.
Tune in tomorrow to see an updated pic, results from my weigh-in, and my plans for solid food. Woooooooo!
Although it seems innocent enough, this is very dangerous to my momentum. Whenever I wake up with this in my head, it leads to a vicious cycle.
This is how it usually goes: I wake up, I curse myself out for not sticking to the plan, I tell myself that I'll start over in the morning, I pig out, and the next day, it happens all over again. So I'm sure you can realize how dangerous this would be when I'm on Day 14 of a 21 day cleanse. It would be stupid to mess up now, especially when I can legitimately eat solid food in less than 24 hours.
Today, I will be busier than a chicken with my head cut off. So many things to do...most of them involve exercise. This will be a tough day of working out, but I'm sure I can handle it. I'll quit anytime I'm not feeling up to it. It's my last-chance workout before my weigh-in tomorrow morning.
Running
First on the schedule is running. I'm sort of dreading it, but excited as well. Today's 40 minutes on the treadmill will mark the end of my Nike+ walk-to-run program. This is an example of something I've restarted numerous times; however, this is my first time completing the 12-week program.
It's sort of monumental, because when I began running in July, I couldn't run for even a minute straight. Now, I'm up to 30. It's still not easy for me, but it's an accomplishment.
After this, I'll be taking a week off to let my joints recover. Then, I'm gonna start up the Nike+ 5K training program, beginner level. I should probably sign up to do a race soon, to see what my new 5K time would be. After last race, though, I'm apprehensive. More about that later.
Spinning
Immediately after I step off the track, it's time to go upstairs for an hour of spinning. This will be a fun experiment. Last week when I did the inverse (spinning first, then running), my legs felt like jello, but I could make it. Let's see what happens today. I'm sure I can make it, since you take it at your own pace.
After spinning, I run some errands (i.e. hairdresser, groceries), for two hours until...
Zumba
Two, count 'em two hours of a special beginner's class. Yaaaaay!
This will mark the end of my workouts for today. I'm amazed I can do this all after a week on juice and water, but surprisingly, I have just as much energy as when I was eating my junk food.
Tune in tomorrow to see an updated pic, results from my weigh-in, and my plans for solid food. Woooooooo!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Cleanse for Meat-Eaters
Disclaimer: Tales of a Big Girl represents my thoughts and opinions, and those of others. I am not a doctor. Please consult a physician before undertaking a diet or exercise routine.
Yesterday, I posted the information about the cleanse that I'm on. There are two options: one for vegetarians and one for meat-eaters. Here's option 2, the one if you eat meat. I think you have to go veg though for the cleanse. I copied it verbatim. Again, my comments are in italics.
"Day 1, 2, & 21:
Breakfast
Scrambled Tofu or Soy Breakfast Links (Yummy!)
Fresh Squeezed Juice or Smoothie
Hash Brown Potatoes or Oatmeal (My faves!)
Lunch
TVP Salad or Tofu Salad
Garden Salad
Fresh Squeezed Vegetable Juice
Dinner
BBQ Tofu and Rice or Spaghetti (Sooooo good...)
Steamed Vegetables or Garden Salad
Sweet Potatoes or Garlic Bread (I'm SO jealous!)
Day 3 & 20:
Breakfast
Oatmeal or Fresh Juice
Soy Yogurt
Fresh Squeezed Juice
Lunch
Vegetable Soup
Garden Salad
Corn Bread (Again, jealous!)
Dinner
Tofu and Mushroom Gravy
Brown Rice
Steamed Vegetables
Day 4 & 8,19:
Breakfast
Fruit Salad
Fresh Vegetable or Fruit Juice
Lunch
Vegetable Soup
Garden Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Dinner
Red Beans and Brown Rice
Garden Salad
Day 5 & 17:
Breakfast
Fruit Smoothie
Melon Salad
Lunch
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Herbal Iced Tea
Dinner
Stir Fried Vegetables & Rice (*mouth waters*)
Garden Salad
Day 6 & 16:
Breakfast
Fruit Smoothie
Fresh Fruits
Lunch
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Dinner
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Herbal Iced Tea
Day 7,9, &13-15:(sic)
Breakfast
Melon Salad
Vegetable Juice
Lunch
Garden Salad
Fresh Fruit
Herbal Ice Tea
Dinner
Garden Salad
Fruit Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Day 10-12:
Breakfast, Lunch, & Dinner
Fresh squeezed fruit and vegetable juices only."
WHAT??? NO WATER-ONLY DAY????
Next time I cleanse, I'll be doing this one. The one I'm on now is so hard, in terms of willpower. But I'm sure this option is also effective. Gotta run. I'll post tomorrow.
Yesterday, I posted the information about the cleanse that I'm on. There are two options: one for vegetarians and one for meat-eaters. Here's option 2, the one if you eat meat. I think you have to go veg though for the cleanse. I copied it verbatim. Again, my comments are in italics.
"Day 1, 2, & 21:
Breakfast
Scrambled Tofu or Soy Breakfast Links (Yummy!)
Fresh Squeezed Juice or Smoothie
Hash Brown Potatoes or Oatmeal (My faves!)
Lunch
TVP Salad or Tofu Salad
Garden Salad
Fresh Squeezed Vegetable Juice
Dinner
BBQ Tofu and Rice or Spaghetti (Sooooo good...)
Steamed Vegetables or Garden Salad
Sweet Potatoes or Garlic Bread (I'm SO jealous!)
Day 3 & 20:
Breakfast
Oatmeal or Fresh Juice
Soy Yogurt
Fresh Squeezed Juice
Lunch
Vegetable Soup
Garden Salad
Corn Bread (Again, jealous!)
Dinner
Tofu and Mushroom Gravy
Brown Rice
Steamed Vegetables
Day 4 & 8,19:
Breakfast
Fruit Salad
Fresh Vegetable or Fruit Juice
Lunch
Vegetable Soup
Garden Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Dinner
Red Beans and Brown Rice
Garden Salad
Day 5 & 17:
Breakfast
Fruit Smoothie
Melon Salad
Lunch
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Herbal Iced Tea
Dinner
Stir Fried Vegetables & Rice (*mouth waters*)
Garden Salad
Day 6 & 16:
Breakfast
Fruit Smoothie
Fresh Fruits
Lunch
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Dinner
Steamed Vegetables
Garden Salad
Herbal Iced Tea
Day 7,9, &13-15:(sic)
Breakfast
Melon Salad
Vegetable Juice
Lunch
Garden Salad
Fresh Fruit
Herbal Ice Tea
Dinner
Garden Salad
Fruit Salad
Fruit Smoothie
Day 10-12:
Breakfast, Lunch, & Dinner
Fresh squeezed fruit and vegetable juices only."
WHAT??? NO WATER-ONLY DAY????
Next time I cleanse, I'll be doing this one. The one I'm on now is so hard, in terms of willpower. But I'm sure this option is also effective. Gotta run. I'll post tomorrow.
Meh...Whatever
Just got home from working out. I bought my dream jeans, along with another pair of size 14s, to replace the 16s I've had to send to the great big closet in the sky. I have good news, and meh...whatever-news.
The Good News
Like I said before, this is the first time in ten years (and only the second time in life) that I've been able to squeeze myself into a size 14. Most of the time, it has been literally squeezing. In mid-January, I was happy to wear a size 14, but in the back of my mind, I knew I was a 15, who was seriously testing the limits of denim.
Each time I wore my size 14s, I stretched them out a little, to the point where they started to look decent. I was secretly afraid of going back to the store and buying another pair, in fear that my 14s were cut big, and I'd have to go back to buying the next size up. But after yesterday, when I realized that I had definitely out-shrunk my 16s, I felt confident enough to go buy a new pair.
I bought the 14 petites today and they fit like a glove! I don't have to jump up and down to get them on, like I used to. They easily slide on, and slide off, like jeans are supposed to. So, I can confidently say that I am now a size 14.
The "Meh-Whatever" News
While I was out, I also picked up a pair of dream jeans (size 12). I wasn't expecting to be able to wear them, since they are, of course, dream jeans. But I was kind of hoping, since I could squeeze into a 14, 12.5 pounds ago, that I could squeeze into a 12 now.
I got them 3/4 of the way up, but I have thick thighs and hips, so they didn't make it over all of my "lovely lady lumps." And plus, I seem to be losing most of the weight in my face, from what people tell me, so that doesn't help much either. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get them up someday soon.
The Good News
Like I said before, this is the first time in ten years (and only the second time in life) that I've been able to squeeze myself into a size 14. Most of the time, it has been literally squeezing. In mid-January, I was happy to wear a size 14, but in the back of my mind, I knew I was a 15, who was seriously testing the limits of denim.
Each time I wore my size 14s, I stretched them out a little, to the point where they started to look decent. I was secretly afraid of going back to the store and buying another pair, in fear that my 14s were cut big, and I'd have to go back to buying the next size up. But after yesterday, when I realized that I had definitely out-shrunk my 16s, I felt confident enough to go buy a new pair.
I bought the 14 petites today and they fit like a glove! I don't have to jump up and down to get them on, like I used to. They easily slide on, and slide off, like jeans are supposed to. So, I can confidently say that I am now a size 14.
The "Meh-Whatever" News
While I was out, I also picked up a pair of dream jeans (size 12). I wasn't expecting to be able to wear them, since they are, of course, dream jeans. But I was kind of hoping, since I could squeeze into a 14, 12.5 pounds ago, that I could squeeze into a 12 now.
I got them 3/4 of the way up, but I have thick thighs and hips, so they didn't make it over all of my "lovely lady lumps." And plus, I seem to be losing most of the weight in my face, from what people tell me, so that doesn't help much either. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get them up someday soon.
Another One Bites the Dust
Yesterday night, when I came back home from going out to the city, I glanced at myself in a mirror. I saw a sight that made me happy, but at the same time, made me slightly embarrassed. I was sagging my jeans.
I'd been wearing this same pair of jeans all day. At work, the kids must have thought I'm trying to be like them. I really had no idea until I looked in the mirror that my jeans were practically falling off my derrière.
AWESOME!!!!!!
Those jeans went right in a pile for my Space Bags. Even though I don't particularly want to go out and buy a new pair of jeans, I'm happy that I can kiss those, the former dream jeans, goodbye. Hallelujah.
I still have yet to buy the dream jeans that I said I would. I may just handle that today. Gotta pick up a 12 and a 14 from Burlington. Adding that to the agenda.
True to my word, I haven't gotten on the scale this morning. I'll try to resist the temptation tomorrow as well.
I'd been wearing this same pair of jeans all day. At work, the kids must have thought I'm trying to be like them. I really had no idea until I looked in the mirror that my jeans were practically falling off my derrière.
AWESOME!!!!!!
Those jeans went right in a pile for my Space Bags. Even though I don't particularly want to go out and buy a new pair of jeans, I'm happy that I can kiss those, the former dream jeans, goodbye. Hallelujah.
I still have yet to buy the dream jeans that I said I would. I may just handle that today. Gotta pick up a 12 and a 14 from Burlington. Adding that to the agenda.
True to my word, I haven't gotten on the scale this morning. I'll try to resist the temptation tomorrow as well.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Cleanse Information
Disclaimer: Tales of a Big Girl represents my thoughts and opinions, and those of others. I am not a doctor. Please consult a physician before undertaking a diet or exercise routine.
Here's the information about the cleanse I'm following, by request. I got it from my running buddy, who got it from a church. I'm copying it verbatim. My notes are in italics:
"Option 2 (For Vegetarians)
Day 1-2: Eliminate all whole grain breads, starches and beans. Eat raw or steamed vegetables, fruit & brown rice (cook with olive oil & fresh pressed garlic)
Day 3-7: Eliminate all cooked food (vegetables & rice)
Day 8-10: Drink fresh pressed vegetable and fruit juices only.
Day 11: Drink spring water only (you may add 6 lemons to 1 gal. of water). Pray, meditate & relax. Get plenty of rest this day. (This is a monster...DO NOT exercise on this day or YOU WILL make yourself sick.)
Day 12-14: Drink fresh pressed vegetable and fruit juices only - apple & cranberry. (This is where I am right now.)
Day 15-16: Eat raw & steamed vegetables only. Include salads with plenty of green, leafy vegetables. (Can't wait to go to Subway on Monday...mmmm....)
Day 17: Add fresh fruit
Day 18: Add potatoes (I love potatoes!)
Day 19: Add beans and brown rice (cook with olive oil & fresh pressed garlic).
Day 20: Add whole grain breads (whole wheat, oat & buckwheat)
Day 21: Add vegetable protein (tofu and others) (This is the only part that I'm allowing myself to improvise. I need that veggie protein because I'm working out hardcore. So I'm bringing it back on Monday.)
After ending the fast, gradually add back food not eaten during the fast. Eat light meals.
Congratulations, you have cleansed your body and proven your ability to deny your flesh. (Yup, I feel that way now. Mind over matter.) Have confidence in this, and build on it."
There is also a spiritual meditation that goes along with this cleanse, as well as a non-vegetarian option. I'll post on those at a later date. Enjoy!
Here's the information about the cleanse I'm following, by request. I got it from my running buddy, who got it from a church. I'm copying it verbatim. My notes are in italics:
"Option 2 (For Vegetarians)
Day 1-2: Eliminate all whole grain breads, starches and beans. Eat raw or steamed vegetables, fruit & brown rice (cook with olive oil & fresh pressed garlic)
Day 3-7: Eliminate all cooked food (vegetables & rice)
Day 8-10: Drink fresh pressed vegetable and fruit juices only.
Day 11: Drink spring water only (you may add 6 lemons to 1 gal. of water). Pray, meditate & relax. Get plenty of rest this day. (This is a monster...DO NOT exercise on this day or YOU WILL make yourself sick.)
Day 12-14: Drink fresh pressed vegetable and fruit juices only - apple & cranberry. (This is where I am right now.)
Day 15-16: Eat raw & steamed vegetables only. Include salads with plenty of green, leafy vegetables. (Can't wait to go to Subway on Monday...mmmm....)
Day 17: Add fresh fruit
Day 18: Add potatoes (I love potatoes!)
Day 19: Add beans and brown rice (cook with olive oil & fresh pressed garlic).
Day 20: Add whole grain breads (whole wheat, oat & buckwheat)
Day 21: Add vegetable protein (tofu and others) (This is the only part that I'm allowing myself to improvise. I need that veggie protein because I'm working out hardcore. So I'm bringing it back on Monday.)
After ending the fast, gradually add back food not eaten during the fast. Eat light meals.
Congratulations, you have cleansed your body and proven your ability to deny your flesh. (Yup, I feel that way now. Mind over matter.) Have confidence in this, and build on it."
There is also a spiritual meditation that goes along with this cleanse, as well as a non-vegetarian option. I'll post on those at a later date. Enjoy!
Fighting Temptation
The theme of today seems to be fighting temptation. Everyone is offering me yummy food. I've had to reject like 5 or 6 offers today. Some people may say that my will is being tested! This is just way too coincidental.
Things were great this morning, when I woke up for the second time. I was so content with my cranberry juice, that I almost forgot how much I miss food. While driving to work, I checked my email (at a red light, people!) and saw that someone was bringing in donuts. But, it got worse...
...when I got to work, I found that there weren't just donuts, there was an entire breakfast, sitting there, for the staff! Surprise! There were pancakes, potatoes, fruits, and juices. Three different people told me to get a plate, get some fruit, get at least some juice, but my response was always, "Sorry. Can't. On a diet." I barely dodged THAT bullet. But, it got worse...
...as I was sitting at my desk, trying to forget about the breakfast that was calling my name in the conference room, my work twin (we have the same birthday) came around to deliver the Girl Scout cookies that I ordered from her daughter in early January, when I didn't even know I was going to do the cleanse. I asked her to hold the cookies for me until March 1, and not to listen to me, no matter how badly I bugged her for them. She agreed. Whew. Dodged THAT bullet. But, it got worse...
...at lunch, as I was drinking my apple juice, I glanced over and saw my work twin eating the MOST DELICIOUS-LOOKING SALAD I'VE EVER SEEN. It even had vegetarian imitation chicken on top. It smelled soooooo good. But thankfully, I was able to enjoy it vicariously, through the smell. Whew. I was able to dodge THAT bullet. But, it got worse...(am I the only one noticing a trend here???)
...while I was teaching my last class of the day, another coworker popped in with some Oreo cookies to share with my class and me. They looked sooooooo delicious! But once again, my response was, "Thanks. Can't though. On a diet." I enviously watched my students chow down on the yummy treats, but I was proud of myself for dodging THAT bullet. But, (all together now) it got worse...
...so now I'm sitting here in my office, typing this blog post. Ten minutes ago, a little girl and her mom knock on my door. I'll give you one guess why they were there. Time's up. It was the little girl's birthday, and they were coming around to give me a cupcake. For the third time today, my response was, "Thanks, but I can't. On a diet." They left a cupcake on my co-worker's desk for her, because she's not in the room. So now, every time I glance over, there's this yummy-looking cupcake staring back at me.
My goodness, I hope it won't get any worse! Never in one day have there been all of these temptations. It is an amazing coincidence.
This has been, by far, the worst day of the cleanse. I originally thought it would have been yesterday, with only the water. But no. After making it through yesterday without cheating, I think I should be rewarded! With solid food! *sigh* But no...I am being rewarded. This weight is dropping off. So I should stop whining and be thankful.
I'll be super-thankful on Monday, when I can have a salad like my work-twin. This is the first time that I've ever been anxious for the weekend to be over.
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When in doubt...
Last night, I didn't sleep very well. As you guys probably know, yesterday was Day 11 of the cleanse, where I had to survive for 24 hours on water alone. Although the directions clearly say "GET PLENTY OF REST," I decided to be hard-headed like I always am, and not pay attention. My justification was that I had gone a day without food before, and I had felt fine the next day. Mind over matter.
So, yesterday was a day like any other. Went to work, ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill on my lunch break, went on a date with a new friend, went to Zumba...yadda yadda yadda. When I went to sleep, I was excited about getting on the scale in the morning, thinking I would see big results.
I remember waking up around 1 a.m., burning up, dizzy, nauseous, and feeling kinda like I was in someone else's body. It was worse than a fever. I felt like my legs were super-heavy. I kept going back and forth in my mind. Should I drink some juice to see if I feel better? Should I wait until morning so I get better results on the scale? Should I get off the cleanse? I even texted my running buddy around 2 am to let her know that I was probably done. Hopefully, I didn't wake her up.
I saw that my new friend had texted me a couple of hours ago, so I responded, and he gave me some great advice. He had also recently lost a lot of weight (87 pounds), so he definitely knew what he was talking about. He told me that what I'm feeling is normal, and to stick to the cleanse. So I decided to try and make myself feel better, go back to sleep, and see how I felt in the morning.
First, I drank some water, which I threw up. Then, I got a little apple juice box, and took some pain medication (I have cramps going on now, too, which complicates things). This worked like a charm. When in doubt, let it out. Sorry, that was kinda gross. But it did make me feel well enough to fall back asleep.
I woke up this morning, feeling awesome. I now have a renewed energy, and am excited that I'm drinking juice. It tastes better than it did before. I'm sure on Monday, the tangerines, bananas, apples, and salads will be the bomb.
Two more pounds down. 186.5.
Total weight lost: 37.5
To 165: 21.5
To 139: 47.5
Days left on cleanse: 9
Next scheduled weigh-in: Monday
So, yesterday was a day like any other. Went to work, ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill on my lunch break, went on a date with a new friend, went to Zumba...yadda yadda yadda. When I went to sleep, I was excited about getting on the scale in the morning, thinking I would see big results.
I remember waking up around 1 a.m., burning up, dizzy, nauseous, and feeling kinda like I was in someone else's body. It was worse than a fever. I felt like my legs were super-heavy. I kept going back and forth in my mind. Should I drink some juice to see if I feel better? Should I wait until morning so I get better results on the scale? Should I get off the cleanse? I even texted my running buddy around 2 am to let her know that I was probably done. Hopefully, I didn't wake her up.
I saw that my new friend had texted me a couple of hours ago, so I responded, and he gave me some great advice. He had also recently lost a lot of weight (87 pounds), so he definitely knew what he was talking about. He told me that what I'm feeling is normal, and to stick to the cleanse. So I decided to try and make myself feel better, go back to sleep, and see how I felt in the morning.
First, I drank some water, which I threw up. Then, I got a little apple juice box, and took some pain medication (I have cramps going on now, too, which complicates things). This worked like a charm. When in doubt, let it out. Sorry, that was kinda gross. But it did make me feel well enough to fall back asleep.
I woke up this morning, feeling awesome. I now have a renewed energy, and am excited that I'm drinking juice. It tastes better than it did before. I'm sure on Monday, the tangerines, bananas, apples, and salads will be the bomb.
Two more pounds down. 186.5.
Total weight lost: 37.5
To 165: 21.5
To 139: 47.5
Days left on cleanse: 9
Next scheduled weigh-in: Monday
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Before
It just dawned on me that some of you may not know how I looked when I began this journey. Here's a picture of me, in August 2009 (seven months ago). That was when I was around 224, almost 40 pounds ago.
I wanted to pixellate my face, the way they do on TV, but I just don't have that kind of technology lol. So I just erased my eyes. Sounds sinister. Muhahaha.
Anyway, that's just to give you an idea of me "BEFORE." I'll take another shot of myself tomorrow. It's not quite "AFTER," because I still have a long way to go. But I'm sure you can see the change. And I wasn't even 100% about it during the entire seven months.
Looking back, I realize that I was afraid to seriously try, because I felt that it would be a slow, painful journey. But now I see that changes are quick, and it's not nearly as painful as I thought it would be.
If I could give any advice to someone who's on this journey with me, it's to stay encouraged and dedicated. You will see changes if you stick to it. Progress may be slow at first, like mine was (it took me NINE MONTHS to lose SIX POUNDS...imagine my frustration), but if you dedicate yourself fully to the process, chances are that it will pay off. (If it doesn't, then you should get yourself checked for hypothyroidism, or other conditions that may make it hard for you to lose.)
Let's keep at it, guys...we can do it!!!
(P.S. Tomorrow, I'll give you guys an update on the weight loss. It is a scheduled weigh-in day, because I'm moving to the next phase of the program. Yay, I get to drink juice again!)
I wanted to pixellate my face, the way they do on TV, but I just don't have that kind of technology lol. So I just erased my eyes. Sounds sinister. Muhahaha.
Anyway, that's just to give you an idea of me "BEFORE." I'll take another shot of myself tomorrow. It's not quite "AFTER," because I still have a long way to go. But I'm sure you can see the change. And I wasn't even 100% about it during the entire seven months.
Looking back, I realize that I was afraid to seriously try, because I felt that it would be a slow, painful journey. But now I see that changes are quick, and it's not nearly as painful as I thought it would be.
If I could give any advice to someone who's on this journey with me, it's to stay encouraged and dedicated. You will see changes if you stick to it. Progress may be slow at first, like mine was (it took me NINE MONTHS to lose SIX POUNDS...imagine my frustration), but if you dedicate yourself fully to the process, chances are that it will pay off. (If it doesn't, then you should get yourself checked for hypothyroidism, or other conditions that may make it hard for you to lose.)
Let's keep at it, guys...we can do it!!!
(P.S. Tomorrow, I'll give you guys an update on the weight loss. It is a scheduled weigh-in day, because I'm moving to the next phase of the program. Yay, I get to drink juice again!)
Pukey
I'm baaaaack! Today is not turning out to be a great day. I have successfully passed the halfway mark in the cleanse, however, after my 2.5 mile run, I'm not feeling very hot. I had to reeeeaaaalllyyy push myself to finish the entire 40 minutes. When I was done, I was about to puke.
Now, I'm still feeling a little jittery. Everytime I stand up, I see black dots. I'm never gonna push myself this hard on zero calories again. I can't wait to eat. This water stuff is for the birds. But I'm gonna make it. As soon as I wake up tomorrow morning, I'm gonna treat myself to a nice big glass of apple juice. Yay. Can't wait. See you guys then.
(P.S. By the way, you can also follow me on Twitter at www.twitter.com/talesofabiggirl.)
Now, I'm still feeling a little jittery. Everytime I stand up, I see black dots. I'm never gonna push myself this hard on zero calories again. I can't wait to eat. This water stuff is for the birds. But I'm gonna make it. As soon as I wake up tomorrow morning, I'm gonna treat myself to a nice big glass of apple juice. Yay. Can't wait. See you guys then.
(P.S. By the way, you can also follow me on Twitter at www.twitter.com/talesofabiggirl.)
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