Shame on Me

I didn't blog at all yesterday. There was kind of a reason for that. This weekend was one big party after another. Staff outing. Karaoke. House party. No workouts. I was on my worst behavior, and was terrified of getting on the scale today, for good reason. 5.5 pounds up since Monday.

I have gained 10.5 pounds in two weeks. Shame on me. I can't keep going in this direction. I'm 3.5 pounds away from where I originally started on the cleanse.

Now that I have that out of the way, let me tell you where I went wrong. Saturday, I was supposed to start on the Weight Watchers point system. Everything was all well and good at first. But then, I got to Zumba and it was crowded like sardines, so I left.

My parents and I were supposed to go out to lunch after Zumba in the shopping center in the area. Since I was done an hour earlier than I anticipated, I decided to pick up the food instead and bring it to their house. I had worked out what to eat in advance, so that I would only use 10 of my 25 points on lunch. I was looking forward to having some good samosas, naan, and frozen yogurt.

When I got to the stupid restaurant, the stupid samosa-maker wasn't there, so I couldn't get them. Being a vegetarian, there was pretty much nothing else on the menu that I could eat. I couldn't really go to any other Indian restaurant in the area, since I didn't want to go too far out of my way, and was afraid the frozen yogurt would drip all over my car.

I examined my local options. There was a Mexican restaurant, a Pizza Hut, a KFC, a Subway, and a Chinese restaurant. Subway would have been the obvious choice, but in my previous calculations, I found the sub I wanted would cost me 9 points alone. Since I had to save a lot of points for the party later on, I was at a loss.

Out of frustration, I tried the Chinese restaurant. They had General Tso's tofu. I didn't even want to know how many points that would cost. I figured I'd start over on Monday. I ordered that, and threw in some fries for good measure.

When I got to the frozen yogurt place, I splurged and got a Blendini, instead of the low-fat yogurt I had originally planned to get. It was delicious, but I'm sure it was horrible.

Later, at the party, all night I ate and drank a little bit of this, and a little bit of that. I went to bed around 4 am, woke up at 7, did some work, went back to sleep around 11, and woke up at 6.

As soon as I got up, I went to the grocery store and stocked my fridge with healthy and semi-healthy food. I got a lot of Weight Watchers items, so that it would be easy to stick to my plan.

This weekend taught me that eating at home is way better than eating out. I plan to stay away from eating out for a while. I also need to work on not throwing in the towel as soon as I run into a snag.

I feel huge and bloated, although I don't look like it. It's all mental, I suppose. I feel like I'm thicker around the middle, my forearms are chunkier, and my face doesn't have that same definition that I briefly attained. But I'll get it back.

At this point, I'm putting all of my eggs in one basket with this Weight Watchers plan. I'll see it through until next Monday. If I could do the cleanse, I'm sure I can do this.

Part of that includes not weighing in again until next week. This is the hardest part for me. I feel like if I had gotten on that scale Saturday and Sunday morning, as I had said I would, that would have shocked me enough to get back on track as it usually does. But whatever.

Doing 3 miles today, maybe some Pumpaxe, and Zumba. I'll throw on a picture later to show you guys how these new 10 pounds look :(

Weight: 195.5
Total weight lost: 37.5
To 165: 35.5
To 139: 56.5
Next weigh-in: Monday morning (gasp!!!!)