This morning, I'm wearing the jeans that I had put in the space bag. But it's not such a bad thing that I'm back in the size 16s. My dad is always hip to new gadgets, and he got me The Perfect Fit Button. This way, I don't have to constantly buy new clothes while I'm losing weight. I can just adjust my old clothes. So I took all my 16s and 18s out of the space bag, adjusted the waist band, and now I have like 8 pairs of jeans that I can wear, ranging from a size 12 (almost there! I think I can, I think I can!) to 18.
Today I got on the scale, and I have gained back exactly half (7 pounds)of what I lost during the cleanse. This stops today. I'm trying to put on a happy face, but this has been depressing me. Today will be the day when I turn it around.
First of all, I need to start getting on the scale again every morning. This works for me. This probably doesn't work for most people. But I have to know. I need that immediate feedback. I'm not the type of person that can wait for several days or a week. When I do this, I start getting lazy and unmotivated. So forget it. I'll be back on that damn scale first thing tomorrow morning.
Secondly, I'm going to work out, and complete all of my scheduled workouts for the day. Although I prefer working out with other people I know, if they cancel on me then I'm STILL going. I need to stop letting other people control my damn workouts. Today I AM going to run 3 miles, I AM going to Powerflex, and I AM going to Zumba.
Which brings me to Zumba. My third point is tied in with my second point. I'm going to restart going to the 7:40 Zumba class. By 8:50 I'm almost ready for bed. So I'm going to the 7:40, and if somebody needs me to meet them at the 8:50, I'll do that TOO if I'm not too tired. There's no way I'm going to sit up in my house, getting all sleepy, to accommodate someone else's schedule. Then, when they cancel out on me, I go to bed. Not going to happen anymore. It's already happened twice this week.
Some days, I will plan to go to both the 7:40 and 8:50 classes. For example, some nights they have other classes going on at 7:40. So I'll do the kickboxing or whatever, then I'll go do Zumba at 8:50 afterwards.
Last but not least (because I'm running late for work), I'm not going to factor my workouts into how many calories per meal I should have. Why? Because every time I eat extra calories to get me through my workouts, something happens where I can't/don't want to work out, and I gain weight. I don't want to eat too few calories so my body goes into starvation mode, and I don't want to eat too many so I gain weight, so I'm going to take my mom's advice. To paraphrase her, just eat what I feel I need to. I'm going to stop forcing myself to eat more than I normally would, and I'm not going to eat like a freaking bird. I'll still count calories for the hell of it, but I won't be as obsessed with it as I once was.
I'm late for work. I'll weigh in tomorrow. I can't wait to get to 184 so I can start taking pictures again. That's 8 whole pounds away.
Weight: 192
Total weight lost: 32
To 165: 27
To 139: 53
(P.S. I really hate posting my stats when I gain weight, but whatever, it's making me accountable.)
(P.P.S. Woo hoo! 500 hits :-D Thanks guys.)
Okay, so I know that we don't really know each other and I'm certainly not a fitness and health expert...nor did you ask my opinion...but I feel like I need to encourage you to KEEP GOING.
ReplyDeleteAnd...really...please don't weigh yourself every day. I know you say that you want the instant feedback, but it's NOT feedback. How much you weigh does NOT matter. It really, truly, seriously doesn't.
When I was working with a personal trainer (I won 20 free sessions - wish I could afford to keep going but that crap is expensive!), he told me about a client he trained that dropped from a size 16 to a size 6...and lost ONE pound. ONE!!!
WEIGHT DOES NOT MATTER. Please don't spend your life focusing on how much you weigh. It's not important. BMI is ridiculous because if you have more muscle mass, your weight is going to be higher and that doesn't mean you're unhealthy.
Please, PLEASE focus on exercise simply to be healthy, and eat simply for health and fuel for your body. Yes, food is fun especially in social settings (and heaven knows sometimes a person can screw up and eat a cupcake and two handfuls of peanut butter m&ms when they shouldn't...like I did last night) but I think when you focus only on that, you're missing the rest of your life out there.
There's a *slight* chance you might be over-exercising too. It should be a supplment to good health, but not the only thing you do outside of work.
Don't let food and exercise steal your life and your joy.
Please be good to yourself. You deserve it. You really, really do!!!
Okay, I'm done now. Please forgive me if any of this is annoying or offensive!
Hey, thanks very much! I'm definitely in this for the long haul. Not gonna give up this time, even though some days I just wanna throw in the towel.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny that you give the example about the person who went from a 16 to a 6 and only lost one pound. I started wearing a size 16 when I was about 205 or 210, so that's about 15 pounds ago. However, now, even with The Perfect Fit, I'm having a hard time keeping them up. I feel like the little kids in the Pull-Ups comercials, where I can easily just pull them off and on, without having to unbutton them. So that's encouraging.
You're very right...there's much more to life than scales and dieting. Another person also made that point, but it takes a while for me to get things through my hard head lol. When I get focused on something, sometimes that's all I see. But I need to take time out to smell the roses.
My mom said the same thing about overexercising. Yesterday I was so down about missing a day of exercise, but as she told me, people don't usually exercise 7 days a week, and I am not a hamster on a wheel. So I'm going to learn how to cool it lol.
Thank you very much for your comment. I'm trying to chill out a little bit and not be so Type A. Hopefully that will come soon.
We'll be here for you every step of the way - hopefully encouraging! :)
ReplyDeleteThe main thing about exercise is that it should be to keep yourself healthy. Be kind to your body, don't beat it up. It needs rest (sleep, relaxation - lack of movement!) just as much as it needs exercise.
You're doing great. The fact that you refuse to give up proves that!
Thanks, that is so nice of you. The funny thing about the exercising is that I'm enjoying it more than I ever did! Maybe because I'm varying it, doing it with friends, and being consistent (thus improving). Hopefully I continue to improve.
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